Jul 24, 2007, 10:24 AM
Post #186 of 2092
Application time is coming up!!!!
So the reality of "application season" dawned upon me in a REALLY BIG WAY last weekend. It's no longer just some concept. It's no longer some thing for me to research. It's no longer something for me to make pretty little folders for and find nice applications to print out and get ready. It's almost here. As in--holy moly, where did all of that time go? It feels like February, when I sent e-mails to people basically saying, "ack, I don't know anything about your program except that it has a stellar reputaiton, can you tell me more?", was really just yesterday. The time is coming up for me to budget my money to allow for application fees. And the time is coming up for me to write a statement of purpose. And the time is coming up for me to register for, and take, the mother-frakking GREs (which scare me to death, because all standardized tests scare me to death).
Holy moly, hot mama! Application time is here! One of my best friends is appling to PhD programs in music composition, so on the one hand it's a comfort--I have a friend in my real life and pretty much in my neighborhood who is going through the same shit that I am with all of this--and on the other hand it feels like a healthy little competition or race. Me with all of the passion that I throw into everything I do and show to the world and her with all of her perspective that she emanates and all of her quiet, internal perfectionism. We both want to get into programs in academic fields that are HIGHLY subjective, and we both want to get good funding.
Is anyone else starting to feel the onset of application time? Has anyone else started to get organized? Please, I hope so!! If it's just me, then I will be, like, Queen Neurotic. I feel like I have gotten a lot of leg work done (I have some friends who are Way Smarter Than Me helping me figure out my poetry manuscripts, and I have chosen 2 different academic papers--one short, for schools like Utah that are cool with short papers, and one longer, for schools like Missouri that want the long stuff--for critical writing samples, and I have secured 4 people to write my recommendations even though each school requests just 3 letters). But I am scared shitless for writing the statement of purpose, for taking those damn GREs, and for just that whole psychological thing of sending out the applications, releasing them from me, and then that really hard thing of waiting and waiting and waiting.
One thing I can say that I am really quite grateful for is that Creative Writing PhD application fees seem to be less expensive than the American Studies PhD applications I sent out (with thankfully unsuccessful results) in 2005. I think the most expensive school fee is like $50 or $60. That's sort of nice. And I do like that FSU has a very inexpensive fee of $30 (makes sense that FSU has the lowest application fee, since it gives its admitted students the least amount of money of all the schools to which I am applying and is in a town with one of the highest apartment rental costs of my desired programs...).
One more question--is anyone else sort of biting their nails over the fact that Missouri accepts, well, 2 people a year per genre? I know it shouldn't mean much to me, but it's sort of a mental block. Egads. As imperfect as the program is, it's one that, for some reason, has become one of the ones that I would be entirely over the moon about getting an acceptance letter from.